It hasn't reached all the way inside just yet. I've been doing the daily-thanks-on-FaceBook thing and it's been helping; since I know I have to come up with at least one thing each day, and I try not to repeat, it helps me to keep my eyes, mind and heart open to the good things in my life.
But. I must admit I'm stuck in the doldrums.
I thought the foundation guy was going to come today to start on my remodeling project, but he didn't show. I called him twice, but still haven't heard a word. (Why do contractors do this????) I didn't think I'd let myself get my hopes up that it was actually going to start, but given the way my attitude slumped once I realized he wasn't going to show, I think my hopes had gotten up despite my negativity.
It doesn't help that I have a stiff neck this weekend. No looking up or to either side. With exercise and stretching, I've gotten it loosened up enough that is doesn't hurt constantly, but it's still pretty darn sore. I think I'm going to have to break down and get a chiropractor's appointment tomorrow. I haven't seen anyone since my practitioner-cum-therapist died last spring. I still have her number in my phone; can't quite believe she's not going to come back to straighten me out. I think this pain-in-the-neck is an acute reminder that it's time to get out of denial mode and find someone else I can see, at least on occasion. **sigh**
This will be a short work-week, and I have fun plans for Thanksgiving, so perhaps the combination will help jolt me into a better space. I hope so. I don't have a lot of tolerance for me when I stay whiny for long.
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