Tuesday, August 8, 2017
On this beat, I sleep.
On this beat, I rise.
On this day, I work.
On this day, I play.
These are the people who share the rhythm of my life.
The rhythm has changed.
My baby bird has left the nest again, and I'm learning again how the rhythms of my life sound when I live alone.
The beat changes when I am left to my own devices. The fridge is emptier, the house tidier. I am learning again to be content to come home to the quiet. Learning again to listen to the sound of my heartbeat when there is no counter-rhythm in the house to balance it out.
I go to bed when I am tired, no longer do I wait to make sure everyone is safely home and settled - for I am home, and I am safe and there is no one else to worry about.
I delay getting up in the morning until the last minute. Oh, wait. That rhythm hasn't changed a bit - I've been having to have serious conversations with me to get my rear in gear in the morning since he left home the first time some years ago.
Last weekend was cool, rainy. I spent most of Saturday and all of Sunday by myself. I procrastinated some, napped some, worked some. I marveled to myself at the spectacle of the rain.
Being alone is daunting. A bit scary, a bit freeing.
I'm finding again my own pace.
It takes practice.
I'm out of practice.
This adjustment is not easy. But there is beauty there when I remember to look.
And, I don't have to share the ice cream.
There is that.