Friday, January 13, 2017
I worked around the house over the weekend; got started on building the closet shelving system.
Monday, I got up and started to look for work. There's not a lot out there right now, but I'm looking anyways. I figure that if I never hit the submit button on these job ads, they'll never have the chance to tell me no. Or ignore me completely. I mean, what fun is life if you don't have job applicants to ignore? And, eventually, most likely, one of them will look at my resume and say, 'yup. that's what we're looking for', and I'll be back to work.
I have competing voices going in my head:
Voice 1: OMG! I'm unemployed and I don't have any money coming in and I'll never find a job and I'll be bankrupt and on the street and then I'll be homeless and... You get my drift.
Voice 2 (talking quietly, underneath Voice 1): I'm free! I'm FREE!
Change is easier to adjust to when it's self-initiated, but I'm working on it.
Realistically, it's a bit much to ask that a job show up right when I need one.
Also realistically, I needed this break. I enjoyed my work at Ericsson, but constant time zone adjustments made me tired. Already, after just a week off (and my fourth week in one spot), I feel less tired. My body and the clock are in agreement on when it's time to sleep, time to eat.
It's good for me to have some time free. Time to look for work and work on my long-neglected projects, yes. But also time to take naps and do not much at all. Time to look around and breathe.
Someone once said it was good to have times in life where one can stop, breathe and relax.
Maybe the universe is trying to tell me something.